I have really let things slip! My determination seems to have faded and I have a plethora of excuses for not having kept up with my writing.
None of them hold much water. P
erhaps the most honest one is that I have allowed myself to be distracted by life. I have certainly found my role supporting others at points emotionally draining. It requires a lot of decision-making and problem solving so I have found that my own capacity for making personal decisions has diminished. I will approach the new decade with determination to do better
Additionally I am peri-menopausal and have been for 2-3 years now. Symptoms are uncomfortable but I have been able to deal with these. The memory loss, I have experienced lately, I have found disconcerting to say the least. Hence I am trying HRT at the present. Not a decision I have taken lightly but whilst I still feel fatigued and do have my hot moment (in a temperature sense only) I am beginning to feel more like myself again.
This also prompted me looking at my blog again in December. I am now committed to trying to make real progress with my writing this year.
Approaching my mid-century I feel strangely excited even though in reality it indicates I have either reached or very much passed the mid-point of my life. My life has been rich in experiences and am determined to continue to open myself up to these.
I think perhaps for the last 2 years I have felt a bit shackled. Gaining a permanent position has provided stability and purpose in my life. However, I miss the freedom, challenge and simplicity of my life as a Supply Teacher.
To conclude, I have much to celebrate and be grateful for. Therefore, I will be welcoming the coming decade with anticipation, determination and a heart full of gratitude and love.
